if i look back, i am lost

↳ rose. '89. adrift.

I am reduced to a thing that wants Virginia. I composed a beautiful letter to you in the sleepless nightmare hours of the night, and it has all gone: I just miss you, in a quite simple desperate human way. You, with all your un-dumb letters, would never write so elementary a phrase as that; perhaps you wouldn’t even feel it. And yet I believe you’ll be sensible of a little gap. But you’d clothe it in so exquisite a phrase that it would lose a little of its reality. Whereas with me it is quite stark: I miss you even more than I could have believed; and I was prepared to miss you a good deal. So this letter is just really a squeal of pain. It is incredible how essential to me you have become. I suppose you are accustomed to people saying these things. Damn you, spoilt creature; I shan’t make you love me any the more by giving myself away like this —But oh my dear, I can’t be clever and stand-offish with you: I love you too much for that. Too truly. You have no idea how stand-offish I can be with people I don’t love. I have brought it to a fine art. But you have broken down my defences. And I don’t really resent it. - Vita Sackville West to Virginia Woolf

Look here Vita — throw over your man, and we’ll go to Hampton Court and dine on the river together and walk in the garden in the moonlight and come home late and have a bottle of wine and get tipsy, and I’ll tell you all the things I have in my head, millions, myriads — They won’t stir by day, only by dark on the river. Think of that. Throw over your man, I say, and come.--Virginia Woolf to Vita Sackville West


 Sylvia Plath. 1932-1963

 “I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I  want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the  skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades,  tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in  life. And I am horribly limited.” 

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“I either eat too much or starve myself. Sleep for 14 hours or have insomniac nights. Fall in love very hard or hate passionately. I don’t know what grey is. I never did.”

(via bl-ossomed)

(via rouge-chevre)

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PSYCHED OUT /// (LISTEN HERE) ► some of my fav 70s songs bc dazed and confused got me goin’ (n’ i’d rather live as a trippy hippie)

  1. dancing queen by ABBA
  2. don’t go breaking my heart (ft. kiki dee) by elton john
  3. never can say goodbye by gloria gaynor
  4. live and let die by wings
  5. love hurts by nazareth
  6. maybe i’m amazed by paul mccartney
  7. rhiannon by fleetwood mac
  8. tiny dancer by elton john
  9. you’re the one that i want from grease
  10. don’t stop ‘till you get enough by michael jackson
  11. brand new key by melanie
  12. lola by the kinks
  13. heart of glass by blondie
  14. don’t stop me now by queen
  15. one of these nights by the eagles
  16. dazed and confused by led zeppelin
  17. le freak by chic
  18. just my imagination (running away with me) by the temptations
  19. going to california by led zeppelin
  20. sing for the moment by aerosmith
  21. if i can’t have you by yvonne elliman
  22. lowrider by war
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